God has called you to something greater - a life devoted to him. Perhaps he's even called you specifically to a certain way or direction for how he wants you to serve him unconditionally.
My question is this... Have you created a Plan B just in case it doesn't work out? God doesn't need your Plan B. You probably don't even fully know what his Plan A looks like. Who are you to say that your Plan B would even work? Your Plan B probably looks like taking a car's emergency brake with you as a backup option when you are going skydiving.
God doesn't want your Plan B option. He wants you fully devoted, and irrevocably surrendered to HIS Plan A.
He said deny yourself. Take up your cross and follow Him.
If you are still holding onto your Plan B option, then I'd go as far to say that you are not yet sold out on His Plan A and might even be sabotaging it from the inside because you aren't depending on Him to come through.
So what Plan A is God leading you to?
Start living THAT.